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Tea towel mountains and hallway happenings.

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Tea towel mountains and hallway happenings.

Author’s Notes: Hope you enjoy, as always comments are greatly appreciated.

I do not own the characters in my fic. It’s all the inner workings of my mind written in some kind of orderly fashion and I won’t get any money for this so please don’t sue.

Noel gazed around at his surroundings noting the pile of dishes at the sink and the mountain of tea towels surrounding the washing machine. It was exactly the way it was that night, he remembered, as his eyes roamed the kitchen eventually fixing themselves on Julian’s face. Julian turned and leaned his palms against the sink staring out of the window into the small back garden. Noel began to speak slowly and quietly, choosing his words carefully.

‘Julian, I…..look I’m sorry about what happened okay. I don’t know what got into me or why I ran off like I did. I just…..I just don’t know anymore……..’ He paused and looked up at Julian’s back, hoping to get a reaction from him. Realising that this was not going to happen and feeling worthless in himself, he turned to leave. He stopped in his steps as he heard a faint, almost inaudible whisper from by the sink.

‘Why are you here?’

Noel made his way over to Julian slowly attempting to place a hand on his back but thinking better of it and letting it flop down to his side. Noel thought about the question for a second, speaking quietly.

‘I felt lost without you Julian. I even went to a shrink to see if I could stop reacting to things the way I do because I know how much it upsets you to see me like that even if you don’t say it and I just thought that this was my last chance to let you know how I feel about you and that maybe…..maybe we could be together and you could help me overcome my…problem…..’ Noel trailed off as Julian rested a hand on his comfortingly. ‘I’m sorry’ he said again, tears welling up in his eyes ‘I’m really sorry, Julian.’ Julian cradled Noel in his arms until his sobbing had stopped, thinking about what Noel had said and how he felt about him. Maybe they could be together, he thought, as he felt Noel’s gaze on him. He looked down into big blue eyes, his heart melting at the sight of the younger man. He’s all mine, he thought, all mine. He leant down and placed a soft kiss on Noel’s lips immediately feeling them click together as if it was always meant to happen. Noel broke off first, stepping back slightly.

‘I’m sorry Julian, I’m sorry for everything’ he whispered as he bolted for the door. He stopped suddenly as he felt a hand tighten around his arm and fell onto the bottom stair crying. Julian sat down in front of him.

‘What’s wrong Noel?’ he asked, concern spreading over his face. Noel looked at him through tear filled eyes but said nothing.

‘I love you Noel, I always have and I know I haven’t said it and I know I acted like a fool when you kissed me that night and I’m sorry about that, but I can’t bear to see you like this so will you please, please tell me what’s wrong so I can help you? Please?’ Julian looked pleadingly into Noel’s eyes as finally Noel began to speak.

‘I just…..I can’t deal with it anymore. Every time something happens that I don’t like I go off and start messing about with paper. Ever since I was a kid I’ve done it and I thought I’d grow out of it or something but I haven’t. I don’t even know that I’m doing it anymore until someone points it out to me or I fall asleep and wake up to find the floor covered in paper or something. I…I just want to make it go away.’ Tears began to flow like a waterfall down his face as Julian’s heart broke at the pain he knew Noel was feeling. ‘Make it go away Julian, please……’ Noel buried his head in his hands and brought his knees up to his chest protectively. He felt like a child again, but was so fed up he needed to tell someone who he knew truly cared.

‘I went to see Jane but she didn’t help. All she wanted was to be the first one to figure out what was wrong with the weird kid so she could brag about it to her boss. I feel like a test subject or something and I just can’t handle it anymore…’ Julian shuffled closer to Noel and wrapped his arms around the slender frame, pulling him closer and making Noel fall off the step he was sitting on.

‘I’ll help you, I know what it feels like to be different, to do things a different way to everyone else, but that’s what makes us unique Noel, that’s what I love about you – the fact that you’re always around and happy – and I don’t care if you mess around with paper when things get to you, heck I wouldn’t even care if you bought a fish every time you felt upset, I’d still love you for it. Although a fish would cost a bit more than paper…’ Noel let out a small laugh against Julian’s chest.

‘Thanks Julian’ he smiled, eyes focused on Julian’s lips ‘I love you’ he said, lips parting slightly as Julian pulled him down into a long, slow kiss. Julian’s hands felt their way along Noel’s back as Noel fell on top of him, both smiling as they hit the ground. Noel looks so good when he smiles, Julian thought, pulling him in for another kiss. Noel let a little groan escape his lips into Julian’s mouth as the older man’s hands found their way inside his thin t-shirt. He lifted his arms up as Julian tugged off his coat and t-shirt, throwing them onto the stairs. Noel’s fingers found their way to the top of Julian’s shirt and teasingly began to unbutton it, placing a kiss on Julian’s neck after opening each one. Noel ran his hands up Julian’s newly exposed flesh, eventually landing them on the edge of his jeans. Noel looked longingly at Julian as he arched his back to allow Noel to slip off his trousers and underwear, exposing his now fully erect cock. Noel gasped as he was pulled down onto Julian, crotches perfectly aligning, as Julian hooked his thumbs through the waistband of his jeans. Noel undid the fastening, kicking off his boots in the process, as Julian gently tugged his jeans and pants away flinging them on top of the radiator. Both now fully naked and fully erect they stared at each other, taking in each contour of the others body. Minutes passed in silence as they both studied each other until Julian spoke.

‘Are you sure?’ he asked, fully hoping the answer was a yes. He laughed for the first time in days as Noel lunged himself forwards locking their lips together in a passionate kiss, tongues fighting for dominance as they explored each other properly. Noel gasped against Julian’s mouth as he felt a hand slowly wrapping itself around his cock. Julian smiled and began to slide his hand up and down the shaft causing numerous noises to escape from Noel’s open mouth. He thought he heard a vague cry as he retrieved his hand and went over to the hall cabinet. However all signs of that passed at the sight of Noel’s face as he turned to him and produced a small tube of lube. Opening the cap, he squeezed some of the contents into his palm and began sliding his hands over his cock all the while each staring at each other. Satisfied with his work he bent down and crawled back over to where Noel was lying on the floor and began to place little kisses up his thighs. Noel shivered in pleasure, wrapping his legs around Julian’s shoulders longingly. Julian teased his entrance gaining soft sighs for his efforts.

‘Fuck Julian’ he screamed as Julian entered him slowly, bending down to place a kiss on Noel’s chest. Julian began to thrust faster and deeper revelling in the noises that he could prise out of Noel with certain movements. Noticing Noel was near climax he wrapped his hand around Noel’s cock, sliding his hand up and down the shaft in time to his thrusts. A few final movements were all that they needed as both came within seconds of each other, Julian collapsing beside Noel panting and sweaty.

‘Mmmm…’ Noel sighed as fingers found their way into his hair. He gazed up at Julian completely calm for the first time in years and nestled himself closer into Julian’s chest sighing softly. There was no point in Noel going back home now, Julian thought, maybe no point in him going back home at all.

‘Shall we go to bed, it’s a bit late’ he asked. Noel nodded approval and wrapped his arms around Julian’s neck as he felt the older man stand up. Julian laughed, scooping him up and carrying him up the stairs to his bedroom. Placing Noel gently under the covers he crawled in next to him and immediately felt Noel’s arms wrap around him and his head rest gently on his chest. Smiling to himself, he ran a hand up and down Noel’s back comfortingly until sleep eventually took them both away.

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Julian awoke with a fright the next morning to hear the shower running. Looking around for Noel he realised it was him in the shower and not a burglar or an evil monster. He laughed at his childishness as he rubbed his eyes and sat up groggily. A few minutes later Noel appeared wearing nothing but a pair of black pants and a pink towel around his hair.

‘Suits you’ Julian smiled as Noel came around to place a long, passionate kiss on his lips. Noel let the towel fall from his hair as he stood back up and walked to the dresser. He had left some of his clothes in Julian’s house as sometimes stayed over after a long night of writing when he just hadn’t had the energy to go home. He pulled out a pair of black skinny jeans and a yellow top, holding them against himself and turned to face Julian.

‘Bet this suits me better though’ he said, posing confidently, a smile slowly working its way across his face. Julian loved it when he smiled.

‘Well yeah, that does suit you, but I think I prefer the black pants myself.’ He made his way into the shower laughing as he heard footsteps and the clinking of mugs downstairs. Finishing in the shower, he found Noel in the kitchen making toast, his back facing the door. Creeping up behind him Julian kissed Noel’s neck and reached for the cereal. They ate their breakfast chatting between themselves and Julian vowed to clean up the house after Noel had left. Suddenly Noel began to go quiet, playing with the ends of his toast absently. Julian placed a hand on Noel’s arm and Noel looked up at him immediately.

‘I don’t want to go home Julian, I don’t want to be all alone again. I don’t want to end up playing with paper again, Julian’ he said quietly, his free hand rubbing his eyes to try and stop the tears threatening to fall.

‘You know, I don’t think that’s going to be a problem Noel’ Julian answered ‘because I don’t want you to go home anyway.’ A small smile spread across Noel’s face as Julian squeezed his hand. Noel stopped rubbing his forehead and instead brought his hand up to Julian’s face, slowly moving it along his jaw line, pulling Julian closer to him. Kissing the older man tenderly, he spoke again.

‘I just need to go home and get some stuff, like paints and canvases and things. Is that okay?’ he asked.

‘Of course, d’you want me to come with you?’ Julian asked, knowing Noel would probably end up bringing half of his possessions with him even if he did go with him.

‘Don’t you think you’ve enough to be doing today without having to come home with me and wait until I sort out all my stuff?’

‘I suppose your right. Just make sure you don’t bring half the house back with you okay’ Julian joked as Noel went to the hall to put on his boots and coat. He didn’t even notice the tiny balls of paper fall out of his coat pocket. A voice came from behind him and he jumped up startled.

‘Do I not get a goodbye kiss?’ Julian asked innocently, pouting slightly. Noel giggled and leant up to place a loving kiss on Julian’s lips.

‘I love you Julian’ he said softly, turning around to open the door.

‘I love you too Noel’ Julian answered.

He watched Noel try to open the gate, jiggling about in an effort to prise it open. He laughed inwardly as Noel did a little dance when he finally got it open and stepped outside to close it. Noel was just about to turn around and call out to Julian when it happened.